love.

date. 2020 - 2021

cities. new york city​, berlin, rome

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introduction.

In this series, I set out to get behind the cliché and discover the meanings of love past and present through readings, practices, and  personal experiments.

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fragments.

It's all in the name.

This section is updated on a spontaneous basis.

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week one.

I invented a game today. It’s called Make Love to the City. Here are the rules:

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week two.

Today is election day and I wanted to do something nice, so I picked up a gallon of coffee and started giving out free cups.

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week three.

Imagine waking up one morning and finding that every person on earth has disappeared and you’re the only one left.

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week four.

This week, I'll try to begin discussing something I've been procrastinating about getting into: drugs.

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week five.

I finally got around to reading Plato’s dialogue on love, Symposium. I forgot just how funny he is! He begins with a discussion of whether they should get drunk that night. I kid you not.

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week six.

I’ve always been interested in nudity. I’m personally rather self-conscious about my body, but I’ve had an inkling that there's something unhealthy about my shame.

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week seven.

It goes without saying that love can make any life worth living. But there’s a darker side to love. A side of love that is perhaps more intimately related to death than we’d like to believe.

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week eight.

I dropped acid last weekend. It’s really hard to talk about (it feels way too personal to think about, let alone write about), but I think it’s important to try.

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week nine.

My sister needed a vacation but didn’t know what to do with her kids. I’ve been focusing on family a lot lately, so, much to her surprise, I quickly offered to take care of them for a couple days.

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week ten.

I’m undergoing this process of transitioning from appreciating my friends for the ways in which we’re similar, to appreciating them for who they are in themselves.

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week eleven.

I went with my roommate to pick up some books from the Strand and took advantage of the walk to discuss something that's been cropping up lately: the irrationality of community.

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week twelve.

To be honest, I haven’t been feeling all that loving lately. But here are some fragmented thoughts on the economy of dating apps, the illusiveness of chemistry, and some good old Freud.

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week thirteen.

My friend, Jo, is one of the most loving people I know, and has functioned as a kind of model for me during this 'experiment'. So I was overjoyed when she agreed to let me pick her brain.

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week fourteen.

So many things happened to me (for me? with me? within me?) over the past few days. My roommate was out of town Saturday so I finally had some (physical and mental) space to myself.

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week fifteen.

The monk, lounging gracefully atop his misty mountain, gazes peacefully out across a restless earth. He disentangles himself from the struggles, torments, and confusions of ordinary life.

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week sixteen.

Orthodox Jewish men and women who are not married to each other are not allowed to touch in an affectionate way. This is called being Shomer Negiah [literally: watching/protecting your touch].

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week seventeen.

Every year before ‘parents teacher night’, my elementary school teacher would tell the class that the greatest gift a child can give their parents is the gift of nachas.

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week eighteen.

My love is irrational. I can never explain it to others, and there is no chance that they will learn to love it too. Rather than an exchange, my love is presented freely, as a gift.

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week ninteen.

Last weekend, I escaped the city with a couple of friends for the nature and calm of Woodstock. It was to be a self-imposed mindfulness retreat.

It went something like this.

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week twenty.

The question must be posed: Is it possible to embrace a friend without distancing an enemy? Is it possible to make love, without establishing a foundation for hatred?

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week twenty one.

I’ve started teaching myself how to play piano. I still can’t play for shit, but sometimes I’ll linger over individual notes, letting them hang in the air far too long, savoring the beautiful sounds.

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week twenty two.

What's the relationship between love and intimacy?

At first glance, it seems obvious. What could be more related that love and intimacy. They'll like two peas in a pod; almost identical.

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week twenty three.

I finished reading the Dalai Lama’s autobiography last night. I actually ended up spending the whole day reading it. Can the Lama be separated from his people? How do leaders relate to their people?

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week twenty four.

I spent the week reading a collection of Gandhi’s writings. I had been led to believe that Gandhi was some kind of great lover. Cuz, you know, the whole non-violence thing.

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week twenty five.

Some afternoon thoughts on empty spaces,
sudden endings, new beginnings,
and the childishness of love.

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week twenty six.

Every object in the world exists in two ways: as a totality and as a fragment.

The trick, it seems, is to accept both.

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week twenty seven.

A conversation with my friend and teacher, Lara, on the intersection of love, health, nature, devotion, and the subtle surprises of small steps.

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week twenty eight.

I went to visit my grandmother for the first time in a couple years. Here are some thoughts on family, lost opportunities, and time's impermanence.

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week twenty nine.

Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in

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week thirty.

I now realize that,
in order to fall in love with one person,
I must first fall in love with the entire world.

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week thirty one.

One morning, as Gregor Samsa was waking up from anxious dreams, he discovered that the world had been changed into a delightful candy shop.

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week thirty two.

I am suffocating. Slowly suffocating.
I inhale your love,
filling my lungs with your noxious fumes.
I am addicted to your poison, I smoke a pack a day.

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week thirty three.

Thoughts while sitting in Gallery 601 of the Met.

Love is almost beautiful.

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week thirty four.

I said goodbye to NYC.

For now.

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week thirty five.

 

 

Home is such a funny word.

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week thirty six.

I’ve been thinking about how
friendships are formed.
I'm high, so hopefully this will
makes sense when I'm sober.

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week thirty seven.

The first 20 or 30 minutes after I wake up

are often the hardest moments in my day.

But love can make that easier.

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week thirty eight.

Lola is a psychoanalyst.
Here, she talks to me about my struggles
finding and forgetting
love.

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week thirty nine.

Rejection, is like having

all the oxygen in the room

suddenly sucked out

without any warning.

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week forty.

I just made love to myself in the bathtub.
I was so excited
that I ran to my laptop
to write about it.